Tuesday, May 31, 2011

bittersweet ending to such a sweet month.

I've been so busy lately that I haven't even opened my computer since the last time I wrote. I still appreciate the need for technology, but I've been trying to spend more time living in the moments I write about rather than scurrying to my computer the very next moment to write it all down. I've been an avid diary keeper since I learned how to spell, and I still get the most pleasure out of writing about my days for only myself to know about, even though I'd gladly tell you about most everything I write about. I think the written word is one of the most important things in the world, and I vowed a long time ago to make it a priority. Both reading and writing it.

Pictures, I believe, are just as important as words. It's one thing to hear about something that happened, but it's a totally different thing to get to see it, even if it isn't with your own eyes. I've been guilty more times than not of just sitting in my floor, looking through old photo albums, reliving every single moment that each picture captured. The human memory is an incredible thing. Out of everything in the world I could lose, I'd have to say that my memory would be the greatest loss [second only to my sweet husband-to-be].

This is what the end of the month of May looked like for me.

 our wedding invitations were assembled, sealed, addressed, and mailed with 49 days to go! :)

 we stained our beautiful outdoor furniture that Mommy and Melly got us at our Home and Garden shower in April.

 I chased hot air balloons with Teesh, Candie, and Trent...and, yes, I still DIE laughing every time I look at this.

 pretty sure Teesh designed this balloon. I could show you a hundred sketches of long-neck dinosaurs that he drew me when we were in high school. he got love letters; I got dinosaurs. :)

go Tigers! 

then the redneck came out in us. we spent Memorial Day afternoon sliding down a slippery slide onto an old mattress. and in case you were wondering, it was the most fun I'd had in weeks!

May was a month of fun and laughter and rest and regular chaos and blessings and so much more.  Most of the days in May were more than enjoyable.

Then, there was today.

Hearts broke all over the upstate of South Carolina, and, more than likely, all over the world, as Papa Don left us to go spend eternity with Jesus. I hope I never have to watch TJ hurt to much again for the rest of our lives, as unrealistic as that hopeful thinking is, because these past few days have been some of the toughest of my life. Having no control over what's happening and no words to make the pain go away is probably the worst feeling a person can have. Countless tears have been shed, hundreds of memories have been shared, hours of silent thought have been spent, family has come together over a not-so ideal situation, but through all of that, hope has been renewed.

As big of an ache I have in my heart and pit I have in my stomach having to face the reality that TJ will now have to get married without his Papa there proudly watching him marry his bride, my heart literally overflows with joy in knowing that he is sitting at the feet of the Creator God at this very moment and for the rest of eternity. I must admit, I'm a little envious. Not only does he get to hang out with Jesus forever, but he also gets to be with Ma, Grandma, and Pop forever, too. I'm certain they'll all be best friends in no time. Maybe now they'll all take a break from prancing around on the clouds to smile down at us in 46 days as I become a wife and Teesh becomes a husband.

How blessed is the Bargeron family to have loved someone with such intensity that it hurts this much to say goodbye to them. Yet, as much as we all love him, he still loves us even more.

Our hearts are broken. But his is finally whole.

"We do not remember days, we remember moments. The richness of life lies in memories we have forgotten."
-Cesare Pavese

Thursday, May 19, 2011

I'm baaaaaaack. :)

I decided a couple weeks ago to take a break from blogging/facebook-ing. Not for any particular reason, really. Honestly, just to take a breather. And, boy oh boy, was it refreshing. :)

Now I get to catch you up on all the INCREDIBLE things that have happened over the last fourteen-ish days!

the morning of May 7th, 2011: my best friend not bestie graduated from Anderson University. WAHOO!

the afternoon of May 7th, 2011: EmilieCarol graduated from Western Carolina University. YAY!

the morning of May 13th, 2011: P. Sawyer graduated from Clemson University. HOOTIEHOO!
the afternoon of May 13th, 2011: Cait Cait also became a Clemson University alum. YIPPEE!

I had the most handsome date for a beautiful Sunday afternoon wedding.

and whose wedding would that have been, you ask? none other than my B. Davis'! #HPBdoWeddings

One Tree Hill was announced to have a ninth and final season on the same day that P. Sawyer and I watched the season eight finale. HALES YES!

and last, but certainly not least, the ladies at work threw Brittany a wedding shower filled with lots of love and laughter. June 4th is coming quick!

It's been a peaceful two weeks, but I'm excited to be back in action. There's just something about documenting the little moments in your life that just makes my heart fill with joy. Basically, I love sharing my life with whoever cares enough to read about it. Mainly because the people that fill it are so stinkin' wonderful. :)

It's good to be back!

"Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart."
-William Wordsworth

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I'm with the A-Team.

It's strange to think that I've been a Clemson alum for nine months now. And for most of my best friends, their post-grad journey is just beginning. I'm so excited for everyone to go out and live their dreams. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't just as sad as I am happy.

Chances are, most of us will be spread out from each other as we settle into our new lives. I mean, hey, I didn't know a single one of my best friends at Clemson before I transferred. It's amazing how close of a bond you can create with someone (or, in this case, someones) in just a few short years. I'm so thankful for each of the wonderful, God-fearing girls that the Lord has blessed my life with. I wouldn't be the girl I am right now if it weren't for them.

 A-Team. WORD.


the next time we all take a picture together, B. Davis will be getting MARRIED! YAY! P. Sawyer and I are SO pumped for our precious bride-to-be!

"I'll keep a part of you with me, and everywhere I am there you'll be."
-Faith Hill

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


I love One Tree Hill. I love spending Tuesday nights with best friends. I love P. Sawyer. I love Nathan.

Yepp, that pretty much covers it. :)

Monday, May 2, 2011

my weekend in summerton.

Visiting my sweet best friend in her cute little hometown of Summerton, SC is always blissful. This was my third trip to the Martin household, but it was the first trip that wasn't wedding-related. Until this trip, I've always been Michal's wedding date/Cantey's stand-in bride/Sarah's stand-in bride, but I didn't have a single responsibility this time. I was a Martin girl for three days, and it was oh so wonderful.

Our activities included several home-cooked meals [all of which were delicious, by the way], an afternoon trip to Pawleys Island [which was my first beach trip of the new year...and it was the perfect day], fresh shrimp for an early dinner on Saturday night, Cracker Barrel for a later dinner with Bo joining our forces for a few hours [just so you know, Bo is THE BOMB!], my first time worshiping at Summerton Baptist Church, a satisfying Sunday nap on the couch, and a whoooooole lot of quality time with my best friend since the summer after I graduated from high school. Who knew that girls state would have such a lasting impact on my life? I sure didn't. :o)

beautiful Pawleys.

I lur-hurrrrrve her.

beach chairs looking out at the ocean. mmmm, something about that just makes my heart beat fast.

my pitiful little fair-skinned Michal's first time out in the sun for the season was less than ideal. it only took an hour before she had to curl up under her towel and shield herself from the sun. :(

first beach picture of 2011. so fitting that it was with my beach buddy! :)

'I know just about all there is to know 'bout the shrimp'n business.'

I am legitimately kicking myself in the hiney for not purchasing these for our wedding toast. how HILARIOUS AWESOME are these?!

the one and only Brittany Odom, better known as Bo!

SWAMP PEOPLE! that is all.

I'm thankful for weekends like this. The ones where everything is right in the world and you get to spend time with people you love with all your heart. I wish weekends like this would last and last and last. They may not, but their memories sure do. :)

"Nothing but heaven itself is better than a friend who is really a friend." -Plautus
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