What will it look like through my eyes? Will my heart break immediately? If so, how will it ever be put back together again? How should I respond to my thoughts and emotions? What is it going to take for me to love like Jesus would love? Will I ever be the same again? Do I even want to be?
These are just a few questions swarming around in my mind as we prepare to depart for our first international mission adventure. Not only is it to a country with too many needs to count, but this one is particularly special to us. I'm in love with a nation and a people that I've never met. Sounds crazy, but it's true. I have been blessed by all the stories told to me by our partners at Capstone who have seen Haiti for themselves, and I can't wait to get down there and experience it for myself. Teesh and I will never be the same. I know that, and the funny thing is I'm okay with it. I can't wait to be pushed passed the point of breaking and have my heart shattered in ways I never knew to be possible. I can't wait to be dependent on the Lord like never before, to acknowledge his power and his strength in new, almighty ways. Even in the midst of such devastating poverty and despair, I know there will be joy. And love. And faith. Oh, to have faith like the faith I will witness while we're there. The Lord will be all we have for much of our trip, and it is the deepest cry of my heart that we would acknowledge him in those moments as all we need. Even more so that we would see deeper and deeper into his heart, learning that he is all we need at any moment, not just in those with no competition.
As we spend a week in Haiti loving on the kiddos at Hope Vision Ministries, I would like to ask for your help. We will need as much of the Lord's blessing as we can possibly get, and it would be so awesome if you would commit to partnering with us in prayer. Pray for safe travels. Beg for the Lord to show up in mighty ways. Intercede on behalf of all the children, Ron, Karen, Pastor Andy, Madame Pastor, and all the other new friends we will make. Ask for the Lord's favor over the next seven days, and plead for his mercies to overwhelm us. There are so many things that I could ask you to place before the feet of our God, all of which are of significant importance, but, most of all, please ask, plead, and beg the Lord to reveal his plans for what comes next in the lives of two humble souls eager to be obedient to his calling for their lives. Ultimately, all we want is his glory to be revealed through us. As we cry out and wrestle with him more and more this coming week, I would ask that you simply join us.
Thank you for all your love, support, and intercession that has been poured out over us in preparation for this trip. We are already looking forward to sharing our hearts and stories upon our return next Friday, and please know that we will be praying for all of you as you do the same for us. Praise Jesus for this incredible community of friends and family who care so much for us.
We love you!
"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you."